im an ordinary girl but inside im a stiff girl

many events in my life that made me be strong.
mother's illness started all unpleasant events I have to face. My mother had cancer of the uterus and last for 4 years and died agustus 2007 and 4 months later my father married again. after she got married it was very difficult just to meet him and I realized it was because he already has a family and maybe, a new life. He now lives in sukabumi. not only distance that difficult for us but also because the people around my father who did not allow him to close to me and my siblings.
and many other things that I can not reveal here and frankly I am among those who harbored feelings until all the flavors that I experienced my own responsibility always includes this. and it makes me believe and have always believed that I was strong and that view is supported by the people I believe, when I talked about this on my friends they always do not know how to entertain and say what if they do so I must be crazy and they blah blah blah.
that's what makes me confident that I was stiff girl inside